EAT what I create

Somewhere along the lines of adolescence to adulthood I had developed self-worth heavily centered around the relationships I build. This is admirable when neglecting the “self” part but a trait I failed to identify as toxic up until now. This caused me to divulge more of myself for others and our happiness together rather than being consistently focused on what makes me happy and allowing external happiness to follow suit. This over-attachment became an extension of me and allowed me to gauge how good of a person I was based on how successful or happy others were with me and my efforts. This was the wrong way to go and showed me just how far off the tangent I had gone. My self-worth no longer depended upon how I actually felt about myself but somehow encompassed the entirety of my family, friends, and partners. With or without causes we’ve all fallen victim to a version of this in allowing outside opinions to often dictate our lives, or affect the way we view others and life events. This form of perspective is only beneficial in creating a limitation to how you think, and a mind with too many limits becomes one with many doubts. So this new journey of detachment is not traveled to hurt others but to empower myself. In order to make decisions that are true to who I am I had to detach from the idea that I am more because I have more. I am still learning this and am recognizing the abundance in being Tyasia! The key to this is trusting yourself and your intuition–that gut feeling that guides you on a daily. In trusting myself I had to work diligently in differentiating between aimless thoughts and intentional messages which is a difficult feat all on its own. My process includes documenting every thought I have and working towards it in that moment or the days following. This released any air of procrastination and forced me to do something, and focus on how that something makes me feel. I naturally migrated to abundance utilizing the more creative elements of life. I love writing, drawing, painting, and poetry. I love to CREATE! Like many of us, these are talents that I'm fully aware of however I never thought it would FEED ME and in America, you must EAT even if you are unhappy with what you are being served. If I never got tired of eating the scraps I would have never been hungry enough to curb my appetite till I'm devouring the filet of my choosing. I’m choosing to EAT HAPPILY!